Warning another post that will go into way too much detail for some.
So I have completely gotten rid of Effexor out of my body. Which is awesome! I’m now on Savella 50mg BID (twice a day). It’s amazing how the pain has almost gone completely away. Only thing is my anxiety has absolutely tripled! I’m being a bit on the bat shit crazy side ride now. It’s not a good time for this (like there ever is a good time for this!) because I’m stressed so much about school right now. The classes I didn’t think that would kick my ass are and the ones I thought would kick my ass, aren’t kicking as hard as they could. But I’m seriously stressed.
With this, I have been put on Buspar. I’ll write down later what the dosage is for that. I don’t have it off the top of my head. For those that do know, SSRI are killer on your sex drive. Which with me being bipolar is not such a bad thing. My libido is that of a rabbit. But with meds, I feel it’s way more under control. Until recently! I knew something was up when I was driving home the other day, and I was having a hard on. Seriously nothing I could do about it. Then to make matters worse I keep having sex dreams. All the dreams end is major frustration.
That’s when I realized this medicine is not going to have the normal anti-depressant effect on my libido. SHIT! So now I have to figure out a way to control this. I haven’t had to in four or five years. That’s how long I’ve been on this medicine.
I refuse to date someone (or in lesbian terms never part from someone’s sight) because I don’t have the time or energy. It would be for sex only currently and I’m not that kinda person. And I don’t intend on starting that right now. But man it would help this urge!
Damned if I do, damned if I don’t! Argh!
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